again...that was hurt__

again...im cryin' becoz of the same thing..at the moment u came to me & gives me hope that u'll come back to me like before but then..when i was so happy with u..being with u,u just ruined it down..how hurt i am..how sick i am..u didn't noe it coz u're not seeing..u're not feel what i am feeling now..i wanna cry but where is it my tears?? where is it....im tired on being on this situation..it is all the same...nuthing gonna change...ZERO...

" hey im hepy when u're here"

"i am da lucky one coz having u in my life.."

"u're my prince someday gonna be"

"i'll love u & waiting for u"

that was nuthing anymore..again...no more hopes..no more everythings..u're DONE!
i love the way u are before not now..u make me cry,u make me hurt,u make me sad... ='(
preety..u shudn't cry..u shudn't be regret..

note for YOU :

tq for being my fren before,dear..

u're so kind pretty much kind...

im happy when u're happy too...

just forget about what i'd saying to u before..its all just a rubbish...sigh...

hoping...u'll get what u wanna have much..

tq for da very nice + lovely bracelet given by u to me on my birthday..

one more..much2 tq for giving me chance to love u,dear...

u're owez in my heart no matter what happen there n how long it be???

let Allah be da judger..

gud luck for u...!(^^,)

u're admittion seems like wanna make me enough to cryin' badly but i gotta find da way im tryin' to not too heartbreak..oho...yet i am understand ur situation & y did u change urself..but i noe u better than u noe urself..just move on..just go ahead..leaving...adios...

rimas..~~

hurm...not in a gud mood today + yesterday too....quite moody..i dun noe y & wat's wrong with them act..i am doing my best for them im tryin' to make themselves being happy when i am there but y r???
soooo miserable..enough...to HIM & HIM..


- 1st of all im sory for being disrespectful..didn't mean so..im so sory...
- AGAIN...im tryin' to be fair on both of u..pliz do understand me & my situation..pliz im beggin'
- im not going to have any comitment either with u ol or anyone else..
- try to understand my situation rite now..i wanna being fren of fren...not even fren but close fren..
- im so sory..again..i wont be disturb by anybody..for this whole time...so sory....

awk...dan awk..sy bukan yg terbaik utk awk2 sume..pg la kat owg laen yg lebih baik & sempurna..sy banyak sgt kekurangan..sy nk idup sy yg dulu sy x nk idup sy sekarang nie..tolongla paham sy..bukan sy x nk memilih antare awk2 semua tp ati sy belum lagi terbukak nk terime sape2 pun..awk2 pgla..sy jahat..sy kejam..ramai lagi girls kat lua bole menghargai awk2 semua..bukan sy...sy bukanlah yg terbaik utk awk2 semua..sy mintak maaf sgt2... =(

i wish...

salam...

hurm..hepy bufday farah...u're big now..on age..aha...first of all i wanna say lot of thanks for those who were wishing me by yesterday + today..tq for ur rememberance..

hurm..at da age of 19 i wanna wish some things...

1. i wish i'll be da EXCELLENT student of my course + at my college...

2. i wish i cud noe who was in my heart actually..aha...(not wishing at all..)

3. i wanna be da cruel but kinda nice fren ..hahaha *evil laugh...

4. lastly i wish i cud be with him someday..insyAllah...hurm...

wah...btw tq mama for coming tp upm yesterday..i tot u're just wanna joke on me..! really have fun by yesterday even i am not very well at all..huhu..tq also for da nice delicious cake mom! I LOVE U SOOO MUCH>>> muah!!

ok that's all...will be continue later IF i am free..hahah...

p/s : upss...btw yesterday he was calling me!!! oMG..hurm..still da same like b4...nvm..just ignore it..x penting pon..hahaha

penat!!

wow!! there's been about 2 week and more i tot i didn't update my blog..hohoh...berhabuk suda...erm..at da college rite now..sooooo bored + tired..hurm..back to normal again...figthing for the final + test becoming soon...oh i really hate it...i wish i could be more hardworking person MAYBE..aha...
upss....write again later wanna have my sleep after then...hushh....

p/s : try'n to do my asignment...haha...could i??? sure i sleep...(^^,)

...don't be sad...

HE...he was my fren but not very close at all...but he owez keep thinking that he was the 1 who was being an unlucky person..why he said so..? he was act like sum1..hurm was also my fren too..

but hard to say...go ahead..

hurm..the story begin.....

one day..they met wihout unexpectation...

no talking..no word..no jokes...silent!

everything like worst! didn't noe each other...

huh! u jeling i..i jeling u..haha

but then 1 month gone...slowly apart of being each other...no worries..no silent anymore..

keep chatting..keep knowing each other day by day...

that girl was so happy on being fren with him..and he was too..i thought..

i keep wondering how care he is to her..how often he grab all of the opportunities to be nearly with her..

sudden,i know the truth..but im not suprised at all coz i am oready know..

i now he was liking her truely no deniable..no objection too..

kindly admit it to me..but then he was too upset with his own feeling himself..

he was scared to like her..he was scared to let her noe that he like her...

he being so humble then with saying he was nuthing to her compared to him..

oh..who was him?? er..just ignore it..

but him the person who was liking her too..oh!!

but she's never noe that he the 1st one was like her so much and she just only make a wish to like him as a fren..but then he da 2nd one who comes later..bring up chance to her..to be loved!

she was being confused and keep thinking why..why...& why...

oh! i can say this is like 3 loves never find its ending...haha

back to the origin..

once again he was scared to fall in love again...

he was scared the moments that was been happened to him before will make the da same history for his whole life again...then..he was done! no more hope anymore...

eh kau!

i wish he could stand and keep hold on with his life..

nuthing much nuthing wrong wif that but keep thinking with ur future..

there is no such thing gone wrong when u're lying to urself...

make it beautiful..make it wonderful..make it amazing...!

even i am not as close as her or another person in ur life instead i am not important much 

but i wish i could lighting ur feeling..hope so...

sooner..pliz give him strength to keep move on and take away all of his weakness and let him be happy...

Dear ALLAH..

find him with a beautiful nice girl that will always make him cheer..

and let HER being happy too..they're all my fren...

i wanna them to be happy with no such worry..sadness and gloomy...

and..

be happy and dun worry if u're not have ur partner but being worry if u're losing HIS love..

just be happy with ur life and keep move on eventhough it was hard!

that was awesome when u're happy..

dat was all the story about..finish! but then same thing goes to me..huh!! hate it!

but i wish i could let him noe dat i "pernah" like him..huaaaa.....hey chill babe..dun think too much...

ok done! no more thinking..fullstop..!

okie..wanna have my breakin' fast with family then..to dat person dat oready read this post,say hi to me..ahaks...(^^,)

bubye love!_

adeh...shuping...(^^,)

fuh...penatnye balek dari shuping2 semalam..hekhek..tapi sungguh sadis juge semalam yer...

1.sangatla bersimpati dengan my sis coz baju raye beliau yg ditempah indah kabar dari rupe...
   huhuh...tu laen kali x payah nk tempah2...beli ciap jek teros mcm aku..senang....teros pakai..aha...
2. kesemangatan nk beli baju raye...sekali x de size lor..huh!! x suke ok...

pusing sane..pusing sini...aik...x dapat2 juge..hurm...
" ayong!! aku da penat ikot ko pilih baju ler..."
last2..jumberbuke dulu..haih...kenyang2 berlaukkan mcm2...topup mase kat kolej...x de bende sesedap itu..wawawa...
finally at last...yeay! jumpe juge..tup..tup..mao balek suda....
 * hurm mao demam la plak....

..bUaT haTi YAng keTanduSan CinTa..

Sabarlah duhai hati...

x perlu ditagih cinta manusiawi yang bersifat sementara...

akan ada cinta yang kekal abadi buat dirimu...

Ada cinta yang bisa membuatkan kau mengalirkan airmata ketika hati merindui..

Ada cinta yang mampu meberikan ketenangan ketika kamu dilanda keresahan...

Ada cinta yang boleh kau jadikan tempat merintih bila kesedihan datang menjenguk...

Ada cinta yang mampu memberikan apa sahaja yang kau inginkan...

Namun..kadang2 cintamu itu pasti diuji..

sekuat manakah cintamu padaNYA..sehebat manakah kasihmu padaNYA...

Datang ujian dalam pelbagai cara..walaupun sekecil kecil perkara utk menilai kesetiaanmu padaNYA..

andai kata kuat dan tetap hatimu padaNYA maka bergembiralah..

Jika hatimu goyah & meragui kasih sayangNYA selepas didatangkan ujian pada dirimu..

maka sedarlah bahawa nilai cintamu disisiNya masih lemah..

Kembalilah pada cintaNYA yang lebih agung dari kecintaanmu buat dunia & isinya...

sudah menjadi sunnahNYa setiap yang bergelar mukmin pasti akan diuji...

Dari ujian itulah DIA mencari hamba2 nYA yg benar2 mendambakan keredhaanNYA..

namun.....

mampukah kamu..sanggupkah kamu....

bertanyalah kepada diri sendiri....

balek..balek..rayer...

diam x diam da nk dekat raye da pon kan...x sedar pon mase berlalu dengan begitu cepat sekali...* aik skema nye ayat..hahah...oh hari semalam mmg sangat la penat ye balek dari kelas SKP dengan muke penoh kebengangan dengan pakcik bas yg bengis itu..tp nvm lor x de ape yg nk dikesakan pon...
btw i looveee pak cik bas kolej serumpon yg BAEK2 belake..x de pun yg bengis macam tu..errr...
lame gile nk tunggu bas kat fak medic...1 setengah jam kot..alang2 tuto akaun burn le...
er...MADAM..im so sory for not attend ur class..i've been stuck there..ngeeee...
tp pas pade kelas akaun taditetibe ase cedey melampau...ha ape kes ha...?
pelik la owg laen dok girang gumbira nk balek raye aku lak dok cedey layan perasaan kat cni...
haish...but its  ok...credit to faten..nyway thanks to her coz owez lend me her ear for me ..ahaks...ten aku cyg ko lebey la....(^^,)

we're together!

btw thanks to the others fren too...tq korang sbb menyapot aku..kahkah...
but then lepak kat kafe tp kan masing2 da x de selera nk makan da...??????
hurm...sesudah itu daku pun pulang bersame parents tersayang....
dear UPm :

i left my heart dat full of sadness...gloomy...and tears here...

and i left it far far away...plus im not going to take it back instead of i'll  make it just a history of my life..

dear ALLAH..pliz give me strength to live on...

im not quite strong to hold on...

dear heart..

i'll let u go..but pliz...just stay away from me & never come back to me...

hey gurl...u need to wake up...chill up...

there's nothing to worry about...

u have everythings..just let it be...

by that..i'll come back there with new heart that full of joy..happiness..

promise...

opss....tetibe nk tetacing ni ape kes..hadoiii...skip2...

eh2 da nk raye la...yeay!! but btw sedih jugak tinggalkan ramadhan nie..setahun sekali jek...

andai kate umo x panjang..hurm....aish....

sebelom tu ni nk ucapkan...

SELAMAT HARI RAYE....

Maap atas segale salah silap sepanjang tahun ini yer kawan2...

andai kate terkasar bahase..tersilap kate...

mintak ampun bebanyak yer...

pade yg memandu berhati2 lah di jalan raye...

ingatlah pade ank bini yg tersayang....

selamat hari rayerr...

ok darl..da ngantuk...uffff....penatnye.....

will be continue with another entries ya...nite babe!!

p/s : geng2 kaki sakat..i'll gonna mish u guys...haha..

happy BelaTed burfDay, IEn!!

hepy birthday to U my dear NUR AZREEN...

hey im so sory..im late for wishing u on ur birthday 31 ogos...

birthday girl she is..

wish u :

# panjang umo & dimurahkan rezeki slalu...

# semoga Allah memberkati hidup kamu sentiase..

# gud luck for ur future life darl..

# be a good person by proud ur mum + dad..okie...(^^,)

erm..so sory again,dear..imma forgetful!

syg kamooo...

P/s : act im forgot to wish her...ingat memang nak wish pon malam tu tp disebabkan oleh azim,faten,zainor n AWE x jadik....adush!!

hey..! happy bufday nana!!

"trut..trut..trut..."

i was lookin' at my fon's alarm..OMG!!

almost forgot bout nana's burfday..its today...!

but then im just thinking that oh SEPTEMBER oready huh...

can't believe it so much quickly time is it...

"hepy birthday to you..."

for my dearest lovely NURDIYANA ALIAA..

my BFF dunie akhirat..

dear..there is few notes for u...

im lucky for having u as my closest fren...

im happy for having u as a part of my life...

im happy for having u as my lil big sister too...

im happy for having u as my shoulder to cry on..as my ear to listen to..as my eye to look on to..

BUT....

im not lucky and not happy if im loosin' u...

im not willing to survive my life without having fren like u,dear...

and now we've been apart..its hard to believe that it just only for a while we're together...

but dun wory...as long as Allah give me HIS allowance to live..

i'll keep on love + miss u owez...my promise...

love...from me..(^^,)

nana!!!!

dun cry while u read this post oke....

coz im tryin' so hard to bear myself on not criying while post this...

m gonna mish u owez...

muah!!

i love her...

jalan2 ketika hujan....(^^,)

uff...today i was so excited + happy...ahaks..hang out together with faten,zati & ecah..
unfortunately it was raining!! OMG abes basah baju...but nvm..we're still wanna have fun together...
i tot i just only a rainy day but..hurm seems like wanna raining heavily! oh yea!!
we have fun there with snap a few more picture while waiting for a bus...

model no 1..zati..

here then..aha..captured by faten..
upss not only her but we tooo....hahah


AND.....

model no 2..faten

here some more...


AND.....

model no 3..aku

ahaa...me wanna have some too...
it was like crzy rite standing there with da rainy day
and took some pic..hahaha
but ADE KAMI KESAH...??

watever pun we're still have fun so much..

somehow inside was not!!

er...just forget about it...

lets have some fun on looking at a few more picture then...

mereka giler gamba!

we're owez belongs together...maybe??

..hope so

with faten that owez be my "ear"..(^^,)

with luvly zaty...

ecah too...

hurm...we being there at the mines for about 5 hours..looking at da shoes...
pants..and window shupink...!
really too tired on keep walking..walking..and walking...
lastly got one pair of shoe for faten and for me too...hahahah
act didn't wanna have some but da shoe looks nice and simple..hahahah...
for u ol..really have fun with u ol la...
hope someday we'll be together again...adios..

last shot from me..yeha..!